The fact that political ideologies are tangible realities is not a proof of their vitally necessary character. The bubonic plague was an extraordinarily powerful social reality, but no one would have regarded it as vitally necessary. ~ Wilhelm Reich
Here is a girl, standing at the end of an alleyway in Chengdu, in the Sichuan province in China, in the early days of the Gregorian year 2010. The longer I look at these photos the more love I feel for her.
When we first made eye contact, she made a grim face, turned abruptly, and marched with purpose the other way. Then she stopped, executed a surprisingly martial turn, and stood surveying me for a pregnant moment. I waved, and she seemed not to respond at all; just stood there stone-faced, or so I thought at the time. After a moment of standing almost like some absurd soldier, she vanished into the doorway of what I assume was her home.
In this moment, so many things went through my mind: My god the Chinese are rigid; even this little girl in pink and turquoise walks like a soldier! What a dirty alleyway; aren’t they loathe to hang their clothes outside in this grime after they just washed them? I wonder what she was thinking about me?
When I got home and had the chance to look at these pictures in more detail, I saw that there was a glimmer of a smile on her face, mostly around her eyes. I have very poor vision, and the optical zoom of my camera sees far better than I do.
Yes, the Chinese are, for the most part, quite rigid. But you would be too if you lived in an authoritarian state (it’s not communism) and knew almost from the start that you were going to have to compete against billions of other people if you hope for any control over the terms of your life. Authoritarianism and a crushing of people’s ability to dream and define the terms of their own lives is mutilation and psychic murder. We are, all of us, here to grow and love. The Chinese people make the best of the lives their government allows them, and this little girl is a great example of why it’s important to oppose governments, not peoples. The Chinese people are not to be feared or damned for the vehicle their government has shoved them into. Their spirit in trying to advance and overcome is to be respected and admired.
This little girl’s alleyway holds several things of interest to me. To touch on the simplest one first, the grime is a byproduct of industry and sheer population density, and industry is, in our globally metastasized consumer culture, how people raise their standards of living. And maybe the U.S. didn’t invent it, but we sure did refine it, give it some steroids, and begin exporting it to the world on a massive scale.
Second among the things that interest me in this alley is the red and gold tracksuit, probably an older brother’s national team uniform. It takes passion and determination and focus to excel in the athletic arena. That’s why governments spend so much money and time on their teams. It creates a strong emotional bond between the athletes and those who admire them. It’s an entirely natural thing, the same way one might admire a swift or elegant bird. Then those natural human feelings are hijacked and welded to artificial nationalist jingoism. This little girl’s likely older brother probably takes order and discipline very seriously, and if he’s on a national team, it means he’s achieved some level of recognition for his efforts in an insanely competitive society. Even before politics and ideology, this little girl is surely absorbing these things like a sponge: how does one make sense of the world, how does one find one’s way through it? You learn from what’s closest to you. You don’t have to understand ideology to be shaped by it.
As a counterpoint, consider the blue jeans. What do blue jeans mean to the Chinese? Although it’s a glib generalization to talk about “the Chinese,” in much the same way talking about “Americans” is somewhat foolish, asking what blue jeans means is not a silly question to ask in an age of mass-produced culture and mediated conceptions of identity. “America,” among many other things, is a brand, embedded with all manner of code that is exported to the world. Consider how identified with “America” blue jeans are, and then further consider that the Chinese word for America is meiguo, or “beautiful country” (To be fair, the Chinese mostly see it as just a word, not as a word with literal meaning, much like people in the U.S. rarely think of Chicago, Manhattan or Seattle as Indian words with actual, you know, meaning.)
That said, I have been called meiguo-ren (“beautiful country person”) probably several dozen times in my short time here, and somehow it always makes me feel a stab of pain that’s related to the pain I feel when I look around at the ubiquitous Western beauty ideals on display here. Really?, I think, a 5000-year old culture of several billion people with a staggering amount of cultural achievements can’t think of anything better to aspire to now than material wealth and the trappings of conveyor belt consumer culture? They want to be like…. us?
Even a cursory study of China makes it obvious how much yearning and rage course through the people, much like underground waterways. One of my favorite Talking Heads’ songs has a line about there being “water under the water, carrying the water,” and I think it describes the humanity and spirit of the people laboring under the Chinese government quite well. They yearn, they long, and, when it boils over, they can exhibit shocking rage.
At the beginning of this, I quoted Wilhelm Reich, Sigmund Freud‘s radical cohort, who was the victim of the only U.S.-government-ordered book burning in history, and who died in prison, a mad man, after being imprisoned for what he dared to think and write. (Sound familiar?) Freud thought people were violent sadistic animals, who had to be controlled and taught to “civilize” themselves for the good of society and stability. You can fairly say that Freud’s ideas were status quo – he never asked whether conforming to a sick society was natural or not; it was just assumed that being “well-regulated” and conforming was desirable and healthy. Reich thought people were loving and good, and that it was the mutilations of society and government, and the imposition of unnatural order that caused neuroses and dysfunction. Reich thought eros was the highest expression of human health and actualization, and that it should be given free reign and support if we were to link hands with our higher selves. There are a great many things to take from Reich’s story, but the one I think of most often, and which springs most readily to mind looking at this little Chinese girl caught between repulsion and friendliness is this: Love is beautiful and dangerous. But sometimes you have to zoom in and pay attention before you can see it beaming back at you.
This week’s image ~ above right ~ Young Girl, Chengdu, Sichuan province, China. Photographer: Brian Awehali, © 2010.
Thumbnail image ~ Detail, Young Girl, Chengdu, Sichuan province, China. Photographer: Brian Awehali, © 2010.
Brian Awehali is the Editor of Loud Canary, a diverse and pithy weblog exploring interconnectivity, sustainability, and nature from within the bowels of modern mass society. To read about Brian’s travels and musings, visit his blog.
